32 days left

Have 5 days really passed since I last posted? The stress is starting to get to me...

I've discovered that the more stressed I get, the more intolerant I get of self-absorbed behavior. I am a pretty laid-back person, completely 'water-off-a-duck's-back' type of person, a "meh" attitude if you will. But lately... I am just so frustrated and irritated by selfish behavior. For example, I park my car on the street in an urban housing area near a hospital; in other words, lots of people coming and going, many of whom probably don't live in the area, that they are visiting someone in the hospital. Maybe they bring their dog. Maybe they let said dog poo on the grass between the street and sidewalk. Maybe they are so upset with whatever they are dealing with at the hospital that they truly forget to pick up said poo, allowing passersby to step in it and smear it on their car carpet and pedals. TWICE within two weeks.

Annoyance Level: Orange

Continuing example: So I'm driving home (smelling dog shit the whole way) in the left-hand slow lane (the 2nd lane on a four-lane freeway) with no one in front or back of me. And as I approached passing a car in the furthest right lane, they put on their blinker and pull right in front of me.

Why???

They were going at least 5 mph slower than me, weren't passing any cars or obstacles, and could have easily waited until I passed. The only reason I could surmise in my head was that they simply wanted to move over. And did so without thought of fellow drivers.

Annoyance Level: Red

Continuing example that put me over the edge: By now I'm just about home and slowly cruising down my road when I see someone walking their dog on the side of the road. Without a leash. So I slow down more, keeping my eye on the dog, who in turn decides that my car is a threat that must be attacked. As I swerve to avoid hitting a leashless dog that is barking and running towards my tires, its owner just keeps walking along, watching it. At this point I wonder what she would do if I too just kept watching it... get run over. Now that I have come to a full stop, I give her an icy glare, which she returns, telling me to avoid her dog. Seriously?! Omg, I actually think steam came out my ears.

Annoyance Level: Exploded Thermometer

I just have zero tolerance anymore for selfish behavior. I see it all day, every day in the hospital- the diabetic who refuses to stop eating crap in spite of his kids only being pre-teens, the alcoholic who won't stop drinking, so her husband left, the drug addict with a new heart valve paid by the taxpayers, readmitted with endocarditis from continued IV drug use, etc. If people could just stop being self-absorbed assholes, that'd be great.

37 days left

I dreamt about oranges last night. According to a bunch of online dream dictionaries, its a sign of good health, fertility, or the oppressing inconvenience of going out of my way to achieve something. I wonder which it could be???

38 days left

I'm using the muli-pronged approach to sucking up as much info as I can- I'm using TBR, EK, and TPR for content and practice. I'm reading EK and TBR chapters for review, and then doing as many problems from TBR as I can without going cross-eyed. Speaking of which, last night I reached the point where I couldn't care less anymore about this test. I was sick of questions, tired of reading between the lines, fed up with examining every detail with a critical eye- its as if I were on a blind date. So I slammed the books shut, stormed off to my bed and promptly began to panic about having only 38 days left.

39 days left

Ugh, I scored an average of 9 on one chapter of gen chem.

Off to do organic.