ARGH! I am working *again* this evening! I thought I had a whole weekend off- I had planned on basking in the spring weather, drinking a beer (or five), having some decent food that didn't come from a dingy fluorescent-lit cafeteria, maybe do a little yard work, etc. But NO! I'm here, again, at the hospital. I really shouldn't complain, as we really need the money, but I also really need a break. I'm tired and I miss my family.
Besides being tired, I've also developed the inability to concentrate and focus. I feel like my brain is moving at 100 mph and I can barely keep up with it. I rush to the end of sentences that I read, as if I'm in a race to get to the end. I don't comprehend anything, I can't remember what I read, and I rush through the material as if I'm being chased by a hungry lion. I can't sit still half the time- I tap my toes, shake my foot, or constantly play with my hair. I get esophageal spasms in the middle of the night, anxiety attacks while driving, and dizziness at least once a day. I've never really had these things before and it's pretty unsettling, not to mention highly contradictory to retaining important information. My best friend recommended going to my doctor to see if there's anything I can do about it all. He took some anti-anxiety meds for a few days when he was overwhelmed at work. I've never taken any kind of "mental" meds before and I'm extremely leery of doing so. Any thoughts out there?
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